Karmic Lessons & Karmic Riddles..

To be where I am right now meant for me that I had to go through quiet some hard & harsh lessons this past year alone already.

Karmic lessons that, after all only have strenghtened my motivation to be really free what ever that meant.. Even when it meant I lost my house, my husband, my relation and the rest of my security's...

I already lost myself, what was the worsed next thing that could happen to me.. Getting broke..?

With many hurdles to take, hubbles to jump over or bumb into, I now truly can say; I got myself, I'm back & I am free and I precisely know where I am and where I want to go..

I tell you, Karma does repeat itself until the lesson truly IS learned, until full insight is gained...

I went through several somekind of 'Groundhog Day Periods' in my life.

The relation I was in, could be the guitar with broken strings where John Legends sings about in a wonderful duet..You can't play with broken strings.. the song jingles through my mind and also get's me to think.. Soo True.

Sometimes you obviously have to go several times through the same kind of situation.. when you finally decide it's enough, when you finally take that one step that sets you free.. The step that makes you go through another boundary zone, one of your neglected C-Zones in my case..

Striving for freedom in your life does not automatically mean you take everyone with you into your new reality, you new discovered truth. It could be the case that you have to let go of people you love but who just cannot give you the freedom you need.

It's not a question of asking to anyone: Hey, listen... I want to be free, are ya commin' with me..Wanna be free too..?

No, it's ones heart burning desire wanting to be free, it is something that comes from your soul.

I cannot remember not wanting to be free, I always wanted to be free, I'm a free spirit, only recently I found out what that really means to me.

If you really start listening to your souls desire, the little voice that comes from deep within and keeps on telling you what you already know, you will come to some point it's the only thing you keep on listening too, you might be even unaware of doing so....

I admit, I tried to long. I tried to explain what freedom meant to me to the outside of me.. That it didn't mean anyone was going to loose me by letting me go. I just had to be free, free to speak, free to be silent, free to stay, free to go, free to not say anything about my day, free to say everything about my day, free to love and free to life just free..

The Freedom issue really is a thing that probably most people fear. I kind of feared it..

Wanting to be free but jumping back into their C-Zones like rabbits, because of all the material stuff they gathered to surround them over the years.. Or because of them being parents having children not wanting them to go through a divorce..Staying in such a vibe maybe for years, downsizing every bit of positive energy and not making any decision at all in the end.

I've been there.. thinking like that kept me where I was.... And keeping on thinking like that brought me the same results over and over again..

What is worse..? I asked myself at some point.. Waking up one day and realizing my life is over without being lived to the fullest I ever could..? Or drawing (my) kids through a divorce, that even they asked for themselves, so their parents would less argue.. and giving me back my freedom in life.

Become really and truly free is a process, a process that can take years.. a process that also can be fulfilled in days. There is no certain period standing for fulfilment in this case.

Once I decided that I would focus on purely the things that would I really loved to do, it meant freedom to me and I started noticing that really everything around me changed.

I lost people around me, who I considered to be friends and with whom I worked very closely, I gained new friends, I lost believes, I got many new insights, I lost projects that brought me income, I gained projects out of the blueand many more strange and wonderful things happened..

Step by step I took back my freedom, just by focusing on the things I love to do brought this much distortion in my relation that in the end I could only think.. Boy,.. what would it be a relief if I would be by myself and free from all the distortion and arguements, free from the negative vibes..

And step by step I really got ready to learn my Karmic Lessons, which wasn't even one. I went through several. I had to learn to listen to my gut feeling, I had to learn to listen to my intuition and more important I had to learn to trust it straight away and no matter what.

At first I couldn't, I've been intuitive my entire life, but I've felt for a long time I needed confirmation first before I could trust on my own intuition and act on it.. That changed totally around.

To learn this, I had to go through several negative and hurtful situations you rather like to find in someone elses life, in Peyton Place probably, but certainly not in yours.

Situations in which the biggest lies became the biggest truths and vice versa.

But I came back stronger then ever, with an dramatically increased sense, awareness and intuition. I found out by experience that the paradigm you live in is either changed by trauma, which can be a Karmic Lesson as in my case, or by growth intended by the individual asking as also in my case.

I reasoned that I better should use my intuition where I got it for.. as all my other intellectual faculties...to increase my awareness and to solve these Karmic riddles that where a part of my life.

Another Karmic Riddle, as I prefer to call those lessons in life most people call Karma, was that I really had to learn I could do everything by myself.

Which means to me that I have the power to attract exactly that into my life I am asking for, in a consciouss way. I am the one that creates my reality, so I am the one who can transform my reality to a different and more compatible one. I can, you can too.

Being fully aware of this new insight I had... moved me in the state of Inductive Reasoning my entire environment... What did suit me in my Life Purpose and what didn't suit me. Who did suit me in my Life Purpose and who didn't..

What & who does suit your life purpose is not always found on the surface and vice versa.

Going through these major Karmic Lessons & solving the Karmic Riddle at that point made me behave differently, as I behaved when I was still a child. Not childish, but merely like my childhood idea's about who I was and what I liked most where desperately looking for recognition on the surface of my life.. And I just followed that to get back into my flowride again.. And that my dear reader, is where I am right now..

You see, MoneyMagnetizing your Life is in the First Place about You, about Me, about who you on a soul level want to be.

It's not about the money... You'll find out, if you keep following this blog, that it indeed never is about the money.. not even for the money printers and publishers.. and also not for me.. ;-o)x

It's about the Heart of Hearts.... and your ability to truly listen to what it says..

Love, Light & a Lot of Laughter

Hilde